.Wednesday, June 09, 2004 Y
Hiyo!
Perhaps I really can live without him by my side. I have been controlling myself alot alot. I haf kept my fingers away from his phone numbers and I have not talked to him for 2 days. Yeps, I missed him but wad can I do? I promised myself that I will forget him and I will not let myself down. I cannot. After the June Holidays, the next school term is very important for me. Too important for me. I cannot afford to have any distractions. Yesterday, went out on a movie marathon with Chinn Yi and my brother. Whoa, spent $50 dollars in total for two people. I'm broke. I have to save again for the skirt that I wanted to buy. *siGh*
Took out about $22 dollars yesterday. Could have used that amount of money to buy that pink skirt that I have looking at for a long time. Now, I have save all over again. I believe I can do it. Commenting on the two movies I watched yesterday. Okay, lets see. Shrek 2 was nice but not Harry Potter. Harry Potter was disappointing. The movie was boring. I got restless in the last part of the show. But my brother seem to have enjoyed it a lot. These few days have to cooped up at home because I'm totally broke.
I have been controlling myself well, haven't I? I can stay away for him for 2 days. Okay, lets see this time how long I can last. The last time was also only a few days and I cannot stop myself. This time, I'm more determined. Wonder if it helps more and also with my friends now accompanying me more often. I now totally agree when people says, "When a door of hapiness closes, another door or window will be opened for you..." I used to disagree a lot. But now, no more. Ever since I broke up with Francis, although I lost him, I seem to have get along with more friends now. Is that the open door for me? I think so. Maybe it is not. At least I think so. I can comfort myself better and can stay away from his phone numbers easier. Anyway, I'm happier these few days. A really big thank you to those who really cared about me and accompanied me these few days.
waiting for you right here
3:03:00 PM
