.Tuesday, June 08, 2004 Y
Hiya!
Woke up quite early today despite the fact that I slpet quite late at night yesterday. Sudeenly went to read the loggings of MSN of me and my ex on the day we brk and the days after we brk and I was oso thinking of the games we played after we break. Why can't everything be the same like the past? I cannot believe that after almost two months, reading the loggings, I can still cry because of them. First guy to make me do so. Unbelievable. I think I am no longer the past me. I changed. I used to be able to get over relationships fast and also handles these setbacks sensibly. But, this time, to my disappointment, I cannot do the same to this relationship. Why? Isit I have become more soft-hearted after being with him? I used to hold back my tears whenever I feel like crying but he once told me not to and we both read on Reader's Digest that holding back tears wasn't good for health and causes heart dieases. Afterdat, he often ask me not to hold back my tears. Isit because of this reason that I am not as "strong" as before?
Wondering.
waiting for you right here
11:12:00 AM
