.Thursday, June 17, 2004 Y
Hiya!
Lots of things happening these few days. My life suckz! Last few days have been going to school. It's suppossed to be a holiday, isn't it? But, for this whole week, I'm suppossed to go back to school. And its not for an hour or so. Its for about 7 or 8 hours per day. Its even worse than a normal school day.
Secondly, I felt very relieved today. Not because of what someone doing anything or saying anything. But its just simply because I don't seem to feel anything for him when I saw him today. I wonder why. But I did something. I actually broke my promise and cut my hand. It was his chinese name. If he can break every, single promise, so can I. Maybe, i really had enough. Had enough of me not as determined as before. Had enough of myself crying for a guy who don't deserve my tears. Had enough of myself torturing myself. I miss him everyday and it's making me suffer. Sometimes, its silly of me to think of one who don't even bother about my feelings anymore.
Have I really done myself something good? Can I really dun set aside a time to miss him everyday? I hope so. Maybe things are changing for the better. Maybe, its time to wait to be found by a guy who really loves and treasure me.. What's the use of stopping in the middle of the road when there is still a long way ahead of me rite?.. hEeZ~*
waiting for you right here
9:10:00 PM
