.Thursday, July 08, 2004 Y
*siGh*
I cried again today. I shouldn't have made myself miserable and called him. I shouldn't even have called and asked him if he was still angrie. I got scolded for no reason again. Who else could I look for when I cry? I don't want to disturb Chinn Yi anymore, I'm afraid that Kleo would be busy with her boyfriend and I don't talk about things lydat to my other friends except boi boi.
I really give up. I dun wish boi boi to be right about his guess. His guess that his anger will appease only after he achieved what he wants - the girl he likes. Maybe its not right to put it in here. I don't want that person to get the wrong idea though and also, I don't wanna believe that that will happen. *I dun wanna accept the fact!*
I'm becoming the old me again. Only that things are getting worse. I don't give up after my hand is bruised and painful after I hit the wall and everytime I try to rub it to make it feel better. My right hand. The joints on my right hand. I dunno what will happen to them if one day, something I don't wish it to happen happen to me. I dunno if my fingers are going to break. I dunno if I'm going to bleed to death or something gross happen to me. I dunno what will I do to myself. I really dunno. Look, only a guess and I have bruised my hand and maybe hoping that they break off and my hand cannot be used. What if they do?..
..Will things change to the way I dun wan them to?..
waiting for you right here
1:13:00 PM
