.Sunday, July 18, 2004 Y
*siGh*
Today is the mark of the third month since the break-up. *siGh* Really wonder how I had lived past those three months without him. Maybe I really have to thank all my friends. To "celebrate" this day, I went to the movies with Kleo to watch Mean Girls. But today afternoon, I really wasn't in a very good mood. After I bought the tickets, I suddenly don't feel like watching the movie already. Wierd me right? I just dunno why. Maybe because thinking of whether if I should buy a present for him on his birthday. *siGh* I dunno if I should buy it for him. I dunno if he will decide to throw it away. I wanted to just write him a card. But I think it lacks of sincerity and also, he spent a lot on my birthday last year. When I think of buying him a present, I dunno what to buy. I dunno if he will accept it. Maybe its even silly of me to even think about it.
Wonder why, a few days ago, Kleo told me a supposedly a good news for me, but, I dun feel happy at all. The "good news" was that he said that he cannot hide from me forever, which means that he wun avoid me anymore rite? I should be happy that he decides that we will be friends one day again rite? But then, I felt more stressed and depressed. I dunno why. I dun even feel any bit of happiness. But, this is contradicting to his actions in school though. He's treating me coldly, giving me stares in school, as though I was his enemy. It was as though, I had offended him in a way or another. I dunno why. I'm feeling more and more depressed. I should feel better as time passes rite? But I dunno why, I'm feeling worse. Wierd rite? *siGh* I just hope things go for the better for me for the nect few days. Tests are coming up again. I just wanna do really well this time round and for my 'O' Levels. This way, I can enjoy in the later part. hEex~*
...gEr gEr is hoping for the better...
waiting for you right here
12:08:00 PM
