.Monday, August 02, 2004 Y
*siGh*
All alone at home. The whole night. Boring. In the past, if this happens, I would walk over to his house and accompany him for a while, at least until his parents are home. Or else, we would spent the night talking on the phone or chatting online on MSN - the whole night. Now, I have to be alone at home, watching tv, doing homework or waiting for a friend to be online. *siGh* A boring life, ever since he left me three months ago. I didn't know the relationship couldn't last. Maybe all my friends were right. I shouldn't give too much in a relationship until at least six months together. But, I didn't believe it. Partly coz he was really sweet and serious in ths relationship.
I give up. I lost. I lost to him. I lost the game of love. I just hope that he's doing fine now. I hope that I'll see him very happy next year with his results. I hope that he will find a girl he loves and loves him back. Okay, I admit. I don't really in my heart wants him to do so. But the rational side of me knows that I cannot stop him in this area. There will be a time when I will stop loving him too. When I no longer love him, I will also want him to find a girlfriend. *siGh* I myself also dunno wad I really want...
**Love is when the other person sets you free and yet you decide to stay by his side. Coz you are afraid that when you finally decide to come back, that person is already gone.**
waiting for you right here
12:32:00 PM
