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Feeling bored so just decided to add an entry today. Waiting for darling to go home and give me a call. Its been a long time since we last had a chat on the phone. Hmm, lets see. Today, I went over to his working place there and accompany him. He was supposed to come and pick me up today, but he overslept!!! But also cannot blame him, he's been busy and not sleeping well these few days. The fact that I know he's by my side everyday, I feel very very blessed. The feeling of being in love and someone loving me and pampering me makes me feel very blessed. I dunno why. I just like this feeling.

Also dunno what time will he be home today. Really start to miss him a lot already. We have been meeting up more often this week. Well, we even planned to go to the movies next tuesday after my Social Studies paper. Planning to watch "Doll Master" together. Oh yah, we just had our one-month "anniversary" on the 28th October and is now looking forward to our second month in November!

Sometimes, I feel that I've lost all confidence in love though. There was once darling told me that we will be together forever. But I answered him that, the higher the hopes, the bigger the disappointment. He even asked me why did I say that and whether I meant anything. *Ling, I really dun mean anything. Its just that I dun wanna be hurt and cry all over again. I trust that you won't do that to me, will you?* Can I still believe in forever? Its there really forever? I dunno if relationships at this age will work out a not, there are examples that did only that its very little. I'm willing to give it a try, but only to one that can be trusted. *I hope you are one*

**I fell deeply in love with you the day we were together. Falling too deeply, too hard... 56830968. I know it, you know it! Hehe.**

Hiya!

Haven been blogging in lately. I'm so sorry. Been very busy these whole week. My 'O' Levels are round the corner!! Just four more days to go and my future depends on this one month!! Have been studying and going to school for lessons and mock papers, that's the reason why I haven been blogging in.

Guess there's something very wrong with me these few days. I haven been sleeping well. Stress? I dunno. I just take a very long time just to fall asleep. Its just so unlike me. Even without my afternoon nap like today, I still cannot sleep. I feel tired. But I just cannot fall asleep! Its driving me crazy!

Hmm. Lets see. Guess the relationship between me and darling is improving. At least, I dun bother myself with that HIM as much as before. And, I'm feeling very blissful with him now. Though sometimes really cannot meet, but absence makes the heart grow fonder! Hehe. Although, I admit, sometimes, just sometimes, I will think of HIM. Well, I really cannot make myself hate him. I dunno why. I dun hate people I once loved. I'll keep the memories close to my heart. I promise. Darling, I promise you, HE will only be in my memory.

Oh ya! I saw on TV today. It was a drama serial. They said that a love that never starts is the sweetest. It made me think about me and Yao Quan=x=x*I know its wrong of me. But what that girl said just made me think about the past us* She said that its the sweetest because, there will never be arguements, sadness, jealousies and the saddening break-up. I guess, its true. Yao Quan and I were just once "online stead". We just used to confide in each other online and he calls me dear dear and I call him honey. But its all in the past. He told me he likes me. I admit I do have a crush on him. But this relationship didn't start in the end. Maybe its true. Its the sweetest relationship. Hehe. Thats all for now.

*Looking forward to the end of the 'O' levels! Hee..*

Hiyo!

Hmm. I didn't have the time to update last few days. Okay, lets see. Last night I went to my school's Gradauation Night. Graduated from my secondary school! Haha. Its only that I haven finish my exams. So sad. Hehe. Its alright. As long as I dun have to go back for my normal lessons. Hehe. Bad girl, aren't I? Well, I admit it myself.

A nice night though. Although, I still didn't get to make it up as friends with HIM, but, at least I have been talking to him to pass him things. Well, I know, I'm stupid. But, I just dun wanna an enemy when I leave my secondary school. I dun wanna leave bad memories. But, well, I still hope that we will become great friends one day again.

I took some photos of myself last night and with my friends but I dunno why the effects just dun turn out well on my computer. Maybe its my computer screen though. I'll really miss my friends there. Well, although some of us is like, we only became friends this year, but we really enjoyed each other's company and regretted hating each other the first year being in the same class. I know we will still continue to keep in touch after that though. We are just under the emotional category. Haha.

*siGh*

I dunno what came over me. Really. I'm not suppossed to think of him anymore right? Yet I am. Just few days ago, Kleo and Francis sort-of became good friends again. Because last few days Kleo told me that they weren't as good as they were in the past. But, they sort of became better again. Anyway, that's not the point. I dunno why. I'm becoming jealous again. Wierd rite? Just few days ago, I'm missing my dear when I'm at home, I was even scared that he would leave me. Yet, since yesterday, I'm thinking of the wrong him. *siGh* I didn't tell my dear. I dun dare and I dun want.

Sometimes, knowing that they got sms each other or see them in class, I just get jealous. I dunno why. I'm not supposed to be. Not anymore. I thought I have forgotten him. Or isit not..? Maybe. I dunno. I dun wanna hurt anyone. I'll keep quiet. Keep quiet about everything.

*siGh*

Got back my results for my Prelims last few days. My marks weren't good. Maybe because I really didn't put in effort to study the subjects well. I'm one that cannot stop studying. The moment I stop, the moment I will start to slack and not feel like studying. Don't ask me why co I dunno the answer as well. Hehe

I really dun wanna go into a JC. Why isit that my parents must force me to go into a JC? I rather go into a Polytechnic. Yes, polys only offers a diploma and if I want to go into a university, I must be the Top 5 percent in the poly, unlike JCs. But, if I know I cannot cope in a JC, for what I go and make myself suffer? My mother is trying to plan my life for me. Please, stop it! It's my life. I dun need you to plan it for me. If you want, you might as well live the life for me! I dunno if I convinced her last night to let me study in a poly, mayb for the time being. Its better than nothing.

Haven been able to see my darling these few days. Well, he found a job. He says he come over on Monday. Looking forward to seeing him. Its been a long time. Haha. About a week? We have been talking on the phone the whole night these few days though. Hehe. I'll just have to hope that Mr Yip dun plan a mock test on Monday. Hehe. I know I'm bad. Studies more important. But, well, I am going to have mock test after mock test in school during my home leave, so give a break for the time being. The teachers are driving as crazy. after Prelims, there is mock test. after mock test, 'O' Levels. Having tests and exams for the whole of this two months! Ging crazy soon.

*I cRoSs My hRt, pLeDgE tO yOu, aLL mY lovE tO HaF aNd To HoLd.. i'LL bE tRuE, i pRoMiSe yOu..*

Hiyo!

Celebrated my birthday for this three days. It was on the 1st October, but my teacher made us stay back after school for Chemistry and Physics. So dear had to wait for me to be released from school since 2.30? Poor him. Haha. Then he accompanied me awhile and he bought me a necklace for my birthday present. Thanks!*muacks* Hehe. Then, we decided to walk home from Boon Lay, but we gave up until Lakeside. Next time, we'll try to reach Jurong East. Hehe. Then, went out with my parents to celebrate my birthday. Had dinner and went shopping and then bought a cake with 16 candles to celebrate it! Haha.

Then, Saturday. Went over his house and saw his father. Watched vcd at his house and play his computer. He also prepared lunch for me in the afternoon. So nice of him. Haha. Very nice worx. Haha. Then, we sit down play computer and chat chat a while and he also asked me which soccer team should he bet on for that day and we sort of "discussed". Haha. Then, because he never sleep the day before, he fell asleep while I was playing the computer. Haha. Decided not to disturb him so went home all by myself. On my way home, I fell down. That was so embarrassing. So many people was there because it was like dinner time. So I quickly got up but I injured my hand though. Dear said he was guilty for not sending me home. *Its alright. Just didn't wanna disturb your sleep ma...*

Hmm. Today. Went to Plaza Singapura with dear, Kleo and her honey. Watched the five plus show so we spent the whole day at arcades and playing pool. Hmm, played one game today but I lost to Kleo. Haha. Then, at arcade, went to play DDR again after so long never touch it. Only got a E. Haha. Looks like I'm not cut out for arcade games. Haha. Then, went to watch the movie, "One missed call". Quite nice though. It was suppossed to be a horror movie but I was laughing even though I was scared. Haha. That was because some of the scary parts are also funny. There was a guy in the cinema who laughed out loud twice. Haha. Anyway, really enjoyed my birthday these few days. Thanks guys!

*Dear, thanks for these two days. I know sometimes I'm really unreasonable. Thanks for tolerating me. Hehe.*

Low JiaQian
01 October 1988
Libra
Staff Nurse

Graduation! - 22 MAy 2008
Sentosa Trip! - 26 July 2008
Trip to Night Safari! - 11 October 2008

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