.Thursday, November 04, 2004 Y
*siGh*
Dun ask me why I sigh. I dunno the reason as well. I regretted. Maybe not a lot. But I still regretted. I regretted giving it all up so early. I dun mean that I dun love my darling. Well, I do love him. But, I regret for not being able to keep my promises. Sometimes, I wonder if he's still angrie. I wonder what is he doing at that moment. I wonder if he had studied for the examinations. I dunno why. Maybe a part of me is still with him. His kisses and whispers still linger. Maybe I still miss him. I'm confused myself.
Are we still friends? You said you will be my forever friend. Do we still have the chance of being friends again? Have you completed the puzzle? I dun hate him. I dunno why. I can't make myself hate him. I also cant say that I still love him. Is there still feelings for him? I dunno. I wonder if he found someone that he will be happie with. *If you find someone who you love and loves you deeply, love her as much as you love me in the past. Treat her the way you treated me in the past. Its sweet. Very sweet.* I dunno if he's still reading my blog. I have somewhat lost contact with him. Must the relationship end this way?
Am I happy with my life now? Or am I not? I have everything that everyone wants. I've got a perfect family, a boyfriend who dotes on me, close friends all around me, a nice home, a more carefree life and more money now. What else can I ask for? I'm happy with my life. I want to lead my life in happiness. Its because I promised him. He wants me to find my own happiness. I want to be happy every single day, because I promised him. What about him? Have he found his happiness? Is he leading his life in happily as well? Where do I get my answers? I will never find them... Maybe I still miss you. Do you still....?
**I'm sorry ling.. I love you. I miss you too. Its just that I'm used to taking some time off my everyday to miss him. Don't worry. I wun leave you, I promise...... -MuAcKz-*
waiting for you right here
8:39:00 PM
