I'm at work now, but now it; my lunch break. I've got things to blog in so I just wanted to blog them in now. Haha.

I was thinking about my life all of a sudden. I finally realised how fortunate and blessed I am. I met up with the best people and they have become part of my life. I've met friends who will always be there for me no matter what, they are always there to listen to me when I'm down and cheer me up. I've met guys in my lve life who really treats me so well.. They tolerated my bad tempers and they pampered me so much. Though they left me or for some, I left them in the end, they still painted a colourful chapter in my life. What more can I ask for in life? I'm already a veri fortunate and blessed girl wih a complete family, good friends and now, a boyfriend who dotes on me.

Thinking back, the selfish me always wanted more of what I have. I'm always not contented. I should learn to me because I already have so much in life. Looks like this is one boring entry? Haha. At least, I learnt one important lesson in life today. hEe~*

**I just miss him lots now...**

Okay, just updated my blog and changed the skin.

However, I cant seem to adjust the size of the toolbar.

The tagboard is below the archives.

I'll try to drag it up.

Anyway, leave footprints kaez? Thanks a lot....

*siGh*

Met up with my darling today. After today, I have to wait for two weeks before I can see him again. Its so torturing. Had quite a nice day today. Hmm, he cooked dinner for me. Then send me home. Before that, we walk around sun plaza for a little while. Kaez, I'm done talking about what I have done today. The next part would be something someone wouldn't like to read. If you think you are the someone, you can click the "X" on the top right hand side of the window. I dun wanna hurt anyone.

I HATE YOU! Yes you! The you always trying to make every single decision for me. The you always hurting me. The you I tried very hard to forgive. But you are still the same you. I kept quiet because I didn't want to hurt you. But you continued. Kaez, maybe I think too much. But. you shouldn't even have give me the reason to anyhow think. I hate the you who kept every single thing from me despite the fact that I told you every single thing.

Think I'm feeling depressed and having my mood swings. Never mind, I dun feel like going on.

*siGh*

Know what I did on Sunday night after I blogged in my last entry? I went to read my past entries. Then, I just missed Francis all of a sudden. Guess my friends should know which one I'm talking about. I know I shouldn't have. But the many memories came flooding back. I got kinda stressd up and depressed again. I kept all quiet all of a sudden. I sat on my bed, hugging on to my soft toy bear. Well, I also heard from Kleo that he found a new stead. I dunno whether I was happy when I heard the news. Somehow, I've got that tiny bit of disappointment. I dunno why. But, that feeling is not jealousy either. I dunno how to describe that feeling.. I suddenly got that urge to cry and hit my hand on the wall again. I dunno why. *siGh*

However, looking at the past, I think I learnt a lot and changed a lot. Whether for the better or worst, I don't think its up to me to judge. Maybe because of him, I found another side of me. One who does anything for love? I injured myself so much after I broke up with him. I cut myself, I hit my hand against the wall and caused the bruises until I remembered once Han Wei scold me, saying that even he as a guy have done hit so hard on the wall. I repeatedly cut the same wounds the last time. Also, I repeatedly hit my hand against the wall despite seeing them bleed. Silly me, right?

After that incident, I'm a lot more happier and learnt to look at things at a different point of view. I get upset less easily now and cry for lesser reasons now. I dunno isit because I've gone through a period of life when I was very very sad. This, I'm not so sure. I learnt that we should let go when the time comes. I held on too tightly and ended up hurting myself. Hmm, important lessons of life that I learnt? I dunno.

Anyway, just wanna wish them him and his new girlfriend all the best. I don't think he will even read this. Lets just hope he gets this message. =)

*siGh*

I stayed at home for the past two days. Wow, it has been a long time since I last did this. After my 'O' Levels and I started to work, I spend my weekend with friends or my family. But this time, I spent two whole days at home. Lets see what I have done for this two days.

Yesterday, I woke up at 8. Guess I'm just used to getting up early already. Then, I ate my breakfast only at 10. But at 12, I'm hungry already. So I ate instant noodles. Right after that, I fell asleep. I didn't even hear my handphone ring. I only woke up at 6. Then, nothing much happened. I just ate dinner, shower, watch tv and sleep. Boring Saturday.

Today, I woke up at 9 all thanks to my parents! They were going out and talking quite loudly, so they kinda woke me up. Then, I watched tv and only ate my brunch at 11. My uncle came to scan his document. Then, they went back. My sister went out. I spent the whole sickening day at home, ironing all my clothes and I really mean ALL. After that, it was only 5.30 in the evening. Since Chinese New Year is coming, I decided to pack my table and cupboard. I finished them at about 7. So went to buy cup noodles for dinner. That's the end of my Sunday as well. Tomorrow starting work again. I just hope my next weekend off will be a more meaningful one. Anyway, it will be. Because I haven shop for my CNY clothes and they are just 2 more weeks away!

**Will you still love me tomorrow?**

the completed puzzle!

Hehe.

I just completed the puzzle that I wanna give my darling for Valentine's Day today early in the morning! So happy. Finish it fast and I don't have to worry so much over it. Interested to see the completed piece? *sound so thick-skinned* Haha.

I went to the movies with Kleo, her hunny and my darling today. Went to watch "Meet the Fockers". Quite a funny show and a quite pervertic show? Even the dog and the baby in the family is pervertic. *omg* Haha. Overall, I enjoyed my day today. Bought a new jacket as well. Hmm, next time can use that to match with a tube and a skirt already because all my other jackets are thick. Hehe. This isn't as thick.

**Dear, I won't leave you even during the 3 months in your NS. Ask me don't anyhow think, you also cannot anyhow think think worx.. Hehe..**

Long time since I last updated, ya?

Thinking about lots of things recently. I really miss my secondary school life and I simply miss all my friends. Thinking back of all the silly things we did, they just seem like it happened yesterday. But, somehow, I'm also happy that that period of my life is over. I seem to be unhappier during that period of time. Relationship problems, friendship problems and study stress. Now, I can say I'm a lot more happier. A more stable relationship and no more study stress. But after I start working, I feel that the relationship between me and friends are becoming more and more distant. Maybe I'm just reading too much into it.

Wonder when I'm gonna get my results. Somehow, I'm getting the jitters now. Though I often tell myself that, since I am done with the examinations, I should let nature take its course. But I'm still scared. I'm afraid that I can go nowhere with my results. Well, I did study for the examinations but I admit that I slacked at some. For example, history and chemistry. I feel that I think I done well for my social studies but my history is going to pull it all down. I feel that I done okay for my biology but my always-failing chemistry will let the efforts go down the drain. I just hope that I won't cry that day. Cry cuz of the poor results. Tears of disappointment. *Touch wood, touch wood..* Haha. I don't want them to come true. Nono, they wun come true. *Gosh* I'm talking to myself again.

Better get my pay soon. 2 more weeks and I finished one month of work. Maybe I'm stopping work after February. After getting my pay, I have to pay for everything on my own. Time to feel the stress of the lives of the working people. Feel that I've grown up? *sound so thick-skinned* I dunno...

**Even until the day we are old with wrinkles, I will still look into your eyes and say I love you.. I promise I'll never leave you..**

Take the quiz: http://www.zenhex.com/quiz.php?id=135 what disney princess are you?

Ariel
You can swim, flip, dive and be one with fish...WHY DO YOU WANT MORE?

Take the quiz: http://www.zenhex.com/quiz.php?id=5473 what's your style? sexy, classy or punk?
Your style is Sexy!You like to show the real side of you.You like to style yourself up in any kind of low-cut shirtsand you could careless of what others will be thinking of you.That's hot!

Take the quiz: http://www.zenhex.com/quiz.php?id=5704 what's your kissing style?
You're a Kute Kisser
0 and 15: You're a Kute Kisser! A Kute Kisser enjoys being sweet and charming. You're the kind of person who naturally is more loving and gentle. You like to be romantic by kissing slowly while stroking your partner's face or by holding their hand. You feel that a kiss is an intimate act of sharing, not just physical fun. You are sensitive to your partner's needs and view your time with them as precious. You like to take your time, and your favorite way to kiss is tenderly. While kissing you listen to your heart and think about how much your partner means to you. Overall you are the most caring and sensitive of all the kissing styles, and you take very good care of your partner by always putting their feelings first.

A week since I last blogged in?

Well, many things happened this week. Really a lot.

Yesterday, I went out with my darling to the movies. Watched Kungfu Hustle. Quite a nice show. Very funny. Well, when we reached the cinema while waiting for the show, I accidentally poured some of the popcorn on us. Haha. Some even went in to my clothes. *omg* Then, after that, he brought me home.

Then, Wednesday and Thursday also nothing much happened. Well, but on tuesday night, my dad recieved a call, telling us that my granduncle was dead. *siGh* I kida regretted not visiting more often when he was in the nursing home. Then on Thursday and yesterday, I went to ttend his funeral. He was cremated[is this the correct word?] yesterday. The last time I saw him, I cried. It was the last time. I really learnt my lesson. Treasure every loved one. Its terrible to regret.

Hmm. Then Monday. My first day at work at my aunt's office. Only the first week and I took one day off on Friday. Kinda feel bad coz it was only the first week! But well, no choice. Her office is kinda okay. But its like, too quiet? I can't stand the silence somtimes. Its too.. I dunno how to describe it anyway.

Thats all for my week. I'm summarising everything coz I wanna watch my vcd now. Hehe.

A quiz I got from Kleo. Am I worse than her?

Disorder	Rating
Paranoid:	High
Schizoid:	Moderate
Schizotypal:	High
Antisocial:	Moderate
Borderline:	Very High
Histrionic:	High
Narcissistic:	Moderate
Avoidant:	High
Dependent:	Very High
Obsessive-Compulsive:	High
-- Personality Disorder Test - Take It! --

Low JiaQian
01 October 1988
Libra
Staff Nurse

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