.Sunday, January 16, 2005 Y
Long time since I last updated, ya?
Thinking about lots of things recently. I really miss my secondary school life and I simply miss all my friends. Thinking back of all the silly things we did, they just seem like it happened yesterday. But, somehow, I'm also happy that that period of my life is over. I seem to be unhappier during that period of time. Relationship problems, friendship problems and study stress. Now, I can say I'm a lot more happier. A more stable relationship and no more study stress. But after I start working, I feel that the relationship between me and friends are becoming more and more distant. Maybe I'm just reading too much into it.
Wonder when I'm gonna get my results. Somehow, I'm getting the jitters now. Though I often tell myself that, since I am done with the examinations, I should let nature take its course. But I'm still scared. I'm afraid that I can go nowhere with my results. Well, I did study for the examinations but I admit that I slacked at some. For example, history and chemistry. I feel that I think I done well for my social studies but my history is going to pull it all down. I feel that I done okay for my biology but my always-failing chemistry will let the efforts go down the drain. I just hope that I won't cry that day. Cry cuz of the poor results. Tears of disappointment. *Touch wood, touch wood..* Haha. I don't want them to come true. Nono, they wun come true. *Gosh* I'm talking to myself again.
Better get my pay soon. 2 more weeks and I finished one month of work. Maybe I'm stopping work after February. After getting my pay, I have to pay for everything on my own. Time to feel the stress of the lives of the working people. Feel that I've grown up? *sound so thick-skinned* I dunno...
**Even until the day we are old with wrinkles, I will still look into your eyes and say I love you.. I promise I'll never leave you..**
waiting for you right here
11:13:00 PM
