Hmm..

Long time since I last update, ya? Lets see. Last few days, I had fun. I went over to look for darling on Wednesday and Thursday. He send me home on Wednesday. Then, the bad bad me went to complain to him that my feet having blisters. Hehe. And the sweet sweet him piggyback me. Haha. See, its always the nice him and the bad me.

Know something? Today and yesterday, he gave me a wierd feeling. Somehow, I felt that he was a stranger to me all over again. I dunno why. At certain points of time and the different things he do, I suddenly feel that I dunno him at all. Why is he like this? Maybe its me. Letting my imaginations run wild again. But quite disappointed in him, again. Sometimes, I have found out that he have been lying to me. *siGh* It makes me so depressed. I dun wanna talk about it anymore. My eyes are shutting.

**I love you...**

my pooh bear pressie!
ling-deardear

Hehe.

I've got my valentine's day present and celebration today! Hehe.. He bought me a pooh bear soft toy with a heart that can say "I love you" and a bouquet of flowers. I'll upload the photos later. Hmm, what should I say about today? I really gort lots to say. But I dunno where to start.

I remembered something! I saw my darling blush today. He looked so cute. Haha. He wanted me to tell my mother that someone gave me this bouquet of flowers as he wanted me to be his girlfriend. But he said wrongly. He say until wife. Then I giggled and asked him again. He blushed and was smiling to himself there. Haha. First time I see him blush sia. Haha..

Actually, that's the only special thing today though. The rest is like what every couple do on Valentine's. Hehe.

**I love you..**

Hmm.

I deleted my last entry. Well, suddenly didn't like it. I'll summarise my New Year events again then. I won quite a lot of money during the first two days of the Chinese New Year. Thirty plus? Lucky me. Hehe. For the past six days, I have been seeing my cousins every single day till about one plus and we meet up at 11am again. I got to start work again tomorrow. *I dun feel like going....!*siGh* After 6 days of fun... I guess I will slack alot at work tomorrow.

Lonely Valentine's Day this year. Darling's going to KL with his boss tomorrow. *siGh* Furthermore, he's not free to talk to me on the phone now. For so many times, its always me going on a holiday while my bf stays in singapore. This time, its the other way round. I'll miss him a lot, though he'll be gone for only one day. But, that's a long time for me! I better stop complaining, things will get worse when he's going into NS.

Its been 2 years since I last spent a lonely Valentine's Day. Kleo's got her hunny. Chinn yi's got her Clement. Any kind souls out there willing to spend this Valentine's Day with me? Haha. I've to spend my day somehow.

**Darling, I'll miss you. I saw your mails. I'll remember them...**

Hmm.

Last night had a small misunderstanding with my darling. *siGh* I wanted to give him a surprise by turning up at his house today morning, so when he asked me to go, I said I don't want to. But he was disappointed instantly. As a surprise, I couldn't say anything. I felt that I hurt him by saying a lot of unkind things in a fit of anger.

So today, I only managed to leave my house at 11. To give him a surprise, I have to reach by 11.30 so no choice took a cab, by his boss fetch him to work, he left earlier. Then, I went over find him. Hmm, so things turned out okay in the end. Hehe.

But, I must say, I'm kinda disappointed in him these few days. When I just got to know him, he asked me once what kinda guys I dislike. I told him, those who smoke and often scold vulgurities with no reason. So, he promised me, he won't scold them, at least in front of me and he will try to quit smoking. He kept his promise for all these while. But these few days, he haven been. He have been scolding vulgurities at the slightest things. He smoked in front of me. At least in the past, he would ask for my permission. I told him. He promised he will change. He promised me time and again about quiting smoking. I just hope he'll really keep it this time...

**Ling, not wanna control you. But you told me once you'll nv brk ur promises....**

Hmm..

I didn't go to work today. Well, its not because I'm lazy. But I'm not feeling well. I have a swollen left eye. I dunno what happened either. I just woke up yesterday morning and it just started swelling. No choice, just went to work. Today, its so much more worst. It didn't subside like yesterday. My darling keep asking me go see doctor. But, my family doctor close already. It'll open at 7. He keep asking me to go polyclinic. Long queue, you know? I dunno how to tell him. I'm afraid it'll anger him. *siGh*

No work = no pay. This month, I'm going to get a very pathetic pay. Well, not because I keep taking leave. It's that the company is having a four day break during new year. Further more, February is such a short month.

Will I regret giving you up one day? Will you suddenly return to me one day? I dunno. Heard that you have a girlfriend now. Must be very loving, right? You must have treated very well, right? Don't give her up, k? Wishing you and her all the best in you relationship...

**Darling, sorry to have made you worried about my eye. I promise, I wun let anything happen to it...**

Hehe.

I'm so shocked at myself. I spent so much money today. I bought a bracelet for myself, a wallet, darling puzzle frame and er.. kleo knows what else.. Hehe. Its like spending on impulse. At this rate, no matter how much I earn won't be enough for me to spend.

Just heard that darling accidentally cut his hand during work. *siGh* Stupid computer. How can you cut my darling. Want cut me. *siGh* Heart pain...

Low JiaQian
01 October 1988
Libra
Staff Nurse

Graduation! - 22 MAy 2008
Sentosa Trip! - 26 July 2008
Trip to Night Safari! - 11 October 2008

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