Long time since I last updated? Hmm, actually nothing much this week though. todat's the 28th! Its the 8th monthsary. Hehe.

Today Kleo asked me if I considered this to be long or short. Looking back, its short. But thinking about the process of maintaining this relationship and making it stronger. Its really a long one. Well, I was sick last week and I'm well now. Hehe. But these few days, I'm getting a terrible headache when I wake up. I feel that the whole room is spinning. Wonder why. Today darling's so sweet. He helped me massage my.. er.. head? Though it didn't really help, but its still sweet of him trying to ease my pain.

Monday is going to be my skill test! I'm so scared that I'll fail it. Everyone told me that I won't. I'm just scared that I'll be too nervous and I can't answer properly. Will I? Hmm.. but after the test on Monday, I'm going to watch a movie with darling! Going to watch the korean movie, "my boyfriend's blood type B" Wonder will it be as nice as "my sassy girl" and "windstruck". I just hope so cuz I intended to watch "monster-in-law", but kleo says its not very nice soI decided not to. Hehe. Looking forward to Monday....

Hmm.. 2 more days and he'll be back! Wonder if he bought anything for me.. *wondering..*

These few days is kinda stressed up in school. So many presentations to prepare and we haven done any. Hmm.. Tried to complete one today and there is like one more that we have to present on Wednesday which we haven even touched one. Well done!

I think I get irritated these few days easily. Or isit the person whom I'm talking to that matters? Well, I dunno. Seem to not want to talk to some people these few days. I seem to get irritated talking to them. *siGh* Is this my problem or theirs? Somehow, I feel that they can never commmunicate with you nicely. They seem to have to use tones that sound so "defensive". Can't stand this kind of people. They can't talk properly to you...

I miss my darLing lots! Wednesday.. It seem so long. Thinking that I have a long day tomorrow. Wednesday seems to come even longer. My bag will be so heavy tomorrow that I think my back will be crooked sooner or later... Haha..

**DarLing, I miss you.. **

Hmm.. Its raining heavily outside now. Darling went on his trip already. I suddenly have the urge to run all the way down and go into the rain. Its a long time since I walked in the rain. I feel that it somehow makes me feel more refresh [is this the word?] I just can't describe it. Whatever.

I feel so lonely. No one to talk to. Alone in the room. Typing this entry. I'm scared of the thunder. Especially at night. They sound so eerie, like something's gonna happen. Okay, I know I'm thinking too much.

I'm missing him now. He's gone for one hour and 48 minutes. 4 more days to go. *Gosh* I'm starting to miss him a lot already. How I wish he's here right now in front of me. *siGh* Well, he'll be back on Wednesday. Looking forward to it. Hmm.. 4 days and counting....

*siGh* DarLing's going to Bangkok on Saturday. And he's only coming back only 6 days later. Gosh! I miss him...

But I know he'll buy me lotsa things when he's back! Hehe.. Let's see. Last week. So many things happened. I skipped lecture for the first time in NYP! Hehe. I know I'm a bad girl. But it was supposed to be e-lecture. The book said so. Last minute there was lecture. I got m friend to help me tap my attendance. Hehe. Then, on Thursday, I went to watch the movie "House of Wax". To anyone who's thinking whether to watch that show, I strongly recommend you to go watch it. It's a great movie. I don't think anyone's gonna complain its a waste of money because of the increase in the movie ticket price. I just wonder why must they increase it almost once every year. Though its only fifty cents each time, will there be a day when it cost $10 to watch a movie on a weekday? *Thinking too much* Haha.

Also last week I finished watching the drama, "At the Dolphin Bay". Its a nice show too. Dramas from Taiwan is too draggy. The only not draggy ones are those "ou xiang ju". Hehe. Waiting for the "Ai Shang Qin Jing Mei Mei" from Chinn Yi. She says its not nice. But Kleo says its nice. Well, who should I trust? Hmm... Haha.

Tests coming soon for me!! Week 6 is skill test and week 7 is theory test for clinical. What if I don't do well? I'm getting exam stress all over again - since the end of 'O' Levels!!

*siGh* Can we stop quarrelling? Why isit that my phone calls with him always end up unpleasantly? I really feel so hurt everytime this happens.. And its happening more and more often.....

I do admit that you treat me very nice and sweet. I do admit there is nothing much that I can complain about in this relationship. But, sometimes, I really need concern and attention from you. Sometimes, I feel so alone. I feel that I'm all alone. Sometimes, all I want is just a simple sms or a simple call from you to tell me you miss me. How long have you not been doing that? I had so much confidence that you will continue doing so as long as the relationship lasts. I waited everyday for that call or sms. But it never came.

You promised that this will always last. But what happen? I am so afraid. So afraid that you will let me go one day. So afraid that things will change. So afraid that things will never be the same again. I dun wanna lose you. I've given too much. Too far that I cannot afford to let him go. So far that I can never afford to regret. So far that I dunno what to do without him. Will things improve? Will I have a fairy tale ending? Will I not get hurt anymore?

**Darling, I love you. I really do....**

Low JiaQian
01 October 1988
Libra
Staff Nurse

Graduation! - 22 MAy 2008
Sentosa Trip! - 26 July 2008
Trip to Night Safari! - 11 October 2008

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