I started my attachment yesterday. Today's the second day and there is already so many things to do! When I finished work, my legs weere just so wobbly. I didn't even get to sit for the whole 8 hours. Somemore, the procedures go one after another. Vital Signs, showering, bed bathing, turning of patients to prevent pressure sores, then a break for lunch. After lunch, its turning of patients again, then vital signs, then NGT feeding. Also, to answer the never-ending call bells.

Back really aches. I just hope that these 3 weeks pass quickly. I don't think I can take this for any longer.

Today's my 11-monthsary. Tomorrow's is the start of my attachment. And yesterday, darling and I went to Plaza Singapura to watch "The Maid". Nice show.

We went to the arcade beside the cinema and we saw the machines that you can get toys up by controlling the machine. He helped me get one toy. Hehe. It was the "Lady and Tramp" doggie. But that machine was quite easy to win. Because we were the third in the row of the day to get it. There was only four inside. Left the last one. When we left, it was still inside.

I'm kinda stressed up now. I wonder what will my attachment be like. I wonder will the three weeks pass quickly. Hmm, I just hope everything goes smoothly for me on my attachment.

Yay! I finished another paper. But I'm so disappointed in myself for today's paper. Its a psychology paper. Its supposed to be one of the modules that I'm better at. *siGh* I can't get myself to study for the paper tomorrow and the day after. I wanna break from the exams!

Someone left a message at my tagboard - Anonymous. I really want to know who are you. Hmm, though I sort-of guessed a few people, but please leave ur name behind please? I'll promise I'll try to stay happy because I cannot really decide on my mood as some other external factors will affect it.

Hmm, I miss my darling lots now. Wonder what he's doing. I was chatting and playing msn games with YaoQuan these few days. Had a feeling like I got a friend back. We kinda like lost contact since last December. I'm waiting to patch things up with another "friend". I wonder if he wants this friendship back. Hmmm..

Hmm, 3 papers down and 3 more to go. Feel so stressed up this week. 3 more days to the end of my Semestral Exams and 5 more days to my attachment. *siGh* Time is passing too fast.

Just one month ago, my darling told me he's going NS on 9th September. Its already going to be the end of August soon. 2 years later, he'll finish his National Service. What about me? Will I be in year 3 of my course and everything going smoothly for me and will we still be together? Or we will each find another partner?

4 years later, I'll be 21 years. Wow, an adult. Sometimes, I hope so much that I will be 21 soon. On the other hand, I don't wanna grow up. If there's a choice, would you want to grow up or be a child forever? Me, I would want to be a child forever. Though you don't have the chance to experience the different things in life, but you won't have any worries to care about.

I just hope that my Semestral Exams go smoothly. I cannot repeat this semester. I don't want my parents to be disappointed. I don't want my darling to be disappointed too. Hmm..

*siGh* I didn't study for one whole day yesterday. I went out with my darling yesterday. Went to Orchard for a Swensen's meal, had a walk around town and went to his house to clean up the hamsters' cage again. Somehow, I'm guilty about it. Why? Because I have only completed two modules. Out of seven? Tomorrow's the first paper. I'm scared that I will fail. I really don't want to.

My family's going through a hard time now. Sometimes, I feel like quitting school because of this. I have to use my dad's CPF for my school fees. And because of this, he can't retire at the age of 55. And also, because of the reason of him using his CPF to pay the school fees, I have been telling myself that I cannot afford to fail. *siGh* I'm feeling so stressed up now. After my exams, its attachment. Stress, stress and more stress.

I'm wondering if I wanna get back something from Francis. Dunno if I should or not. Its a calender that he said he would return to me at the end of this year. I dunno if I should call him and get it back. Hmm, should I or should I not?

Hehe. He's coming back in 2 days time.

Had a bad dream last night. I dreamt that I was at darling's house. Then his phone rang and obviously it was his friend who called him. Then, I heard him telling his friend, "*siGh* I broke up with Wan-Er* last week. If I didn't break up with her, we would be spending our one-monthary today." After this sentence, he put down the phone and I confronted him. Without any hesitation, he said: "I met her through my friend. Chatted with her online for 1 week and we just got together." I got angry and we quarrelled. He told me not to be angry and he said that they broke up already.

I didn't cry in the dream and woke up immediately. However, the dream seem so real when I woke up. I dunno why.

*I know of a girl named Wan-Er but I have never chatted with her. As for my darling, he has no friend of this name. Wierd right? Dunno why would her name come out in my dream though.

Hmm.. Darling went out of Singapore with his friends. It's the 4th day that he is out. And he'll only be back 4 days later. *siGh*

I miss him so much that I cried last night. I didn't believe it myself. But I really did. Sometimes I hope that I could turn the clock and make time go faster.

Life's at school is alright. Exams are coming and I haven really start studying. *Gosh* I can't fail the exams!!

4 more days to go... and I'm still counting!

Hm.. this was taken on Kleo's birthday. We went Seoul Garden with Kleo's hunny, my darling, Kleo's hunny's frens and not forgetting Chinn Yi. But too bad, Chinn Yi had sunburn on her face so she declined all photo-taking. Hehe. I look so fat in the picture right? Quite fun. We ate beansprouts. Haha. And, I found out Chinn Yi's a better cook than Kleo. *opps* Kleo.. don't take it to heart kaez? Joking only. Hehe..

*siGh* Haven been sleeping well past few days. And what made it worst was I had to wake up early in the morning at 6 to finish up the last bits of our project. I just have a bad feeling towards this project. I think I'm gonna fail. Reason very simple, we didn't really put in effort into the project and the other groups are doing it a lot more better than us. *siGh*

Darling's gonna overseas next week. I'm missing him now. I wonder what will my one week without him be like. I miss him soooooo much. Dunno this week he got time to accompany me a not. Or maybe next Monday since he's going overseas on Wednesday. I wanna go the Pets' Safari at Eastpoint that Ze Yan's talking about. She said it was a big pet shop with lots of puppies, hamsters... Hmm, I just hope he's free...

Low JiaQian
01 October 1988
Libra
Staff Nurse

Graduation! - 22 MAy 2008
Sentosa Trip! - 26 July 2008
Trip to Night Safari! - 11 October 2008

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