I've got my second birthday present for this year. It was Kleo's surprise. But the present was not from Kleo, it was from Francis(Tan). He gave me a box filled with chocolates, Hershey's Kisses. That present filled with the letters I used to write to him. Ever since we broke up, I haven't been eating that chocolate. I was surprised that he still remembered. I was also quite shocked that he returned to me all the letters that I wrote to him. I dunno why. I used a box to keep all these things as well. Hmm, anyway, thanks alot for that chocolates. I wonder how am I going to finish them. And, I called him and said "thank you" for the chocolates and he wished me happy birthday. =)

Today, I managed to see darling for about 30 minutes. He was in Jurong Point as he went to NUH for his check-up and was at Jurong Point so went to meet up with him for that little while. I then collected that two heavy phonebooks to go home. Look at the time. *Gosh* I thought I was going to be late meeting Kleo as I wanted to drop by Giordano to buy that pair of jeans. Well, I managed to be in time.

Tomorrow's going to Marina South for the birthday celebration with my happy-three-friends, Clement, darling, Kleo's date and some of darling's friends. Hmm, looking forward to tomorrow. Hehe..

Yesterday was our one year anniversary. Wow! Time really flies. Its been one year since we met. Hmm, someone asked me a wierd question just now. That person asked, "if one day Francis(Tan) ask u to patch, what will be your reaction?". The question came too sudden and I dunno what I will do. Most likely reject him? I mean, I have a boyfriend now and he is in NS. I can't because he don't have the time to accompany me so I leave him and patch up with him. And also, I love him a lot. The same can't be said to be Francis(Tan). We were once in a relationship. But, that was already the PAST. **Love is when the other person sets you free yet you decide to stay by his side. Coz you are afraid that when you finally decide to come back, the person is already gone.** I once stayed by side because I was afraid when he decides to come back, I'll be gone. But, I gave up staying by his side because he didn't decide to come back so I decide to set him free as well. I hope the question that person ask won't come true. I once wished that it will happen. Now, I no longer do. He once asked me to find my own happiness. I did and I hope he did it as well or will do so. =)

Hmm, talk about today. Went to K-Box with Chinn Yi today. Sang for 4 hours and sat at Long John Silvers' to chat till 4pm? Then went to walk around Giordano. Hmm, I can't decide whether to buy the jeans or the three-quarters. Darling's going to nag to say I'm spending again. But, it's my birthday soon dear. Get my hint? Haha.

Hmm, need to sleep early tonight. Going out early in the morning tomorrow. But I'll have to wait for Kleo's sms to confirm whether she meeting me.

Accompany him today until he book in.. Hmm, went no where special today..

All my baby hamsters died. For I dunno what reason. Anyway, the wierd thing is that, my hamster gave birth to another 3 baby hamsters again. This hamster was the one that gave birth the other time and we had even isolated her.

*Deleted* It's not "I love you" that I want to hear. Just stay by my side forever.

I helped him iron his uniform and folded his sleeve to the way it had to be. And I'm quite proud of myself as his brother and him said that it was quite good. =) Yay! 6 more days to my birthday. If he's able to celebrate my birthday with me, he'll be bringing his friends and I'll have quite a lot of people celebrating my 17th birthday with me! Hehe..

Before Kleo blog it in her blog, I'm going to blog it first! Haha.. Hmm, went back to Boon Lay Sec today to meet my brother for lunch with Kleo and Sebastian. So coincidentally, both of them were punished for not doing thier homework. After that, we went for lunch and they came over to my house.

This the thing I wanna blog it first... When I was closing the gate of my house to bring them to the bus stop, a baby lizard fell on my slippers. *eeEEee* As my slippers were brown in colour, I only saw it when I was observing what was on my slipper and it wriggled! *Gosh* I screamed and kicked that side of the slippers away, together with that baby lizard.

I'm so happy today. He's booking out tomorrow! But I'll only be meeting him on Sunday. But I contented. What else can I ask for now? Who would want to only meet once a week or once fortnightly? 2 years later.. 2 years later and we don't have to do this anymore.. =)

He managed to call me again today. Somehow, I'm not as happy as yesterday. Its not that we quarrelled, is that too much time was given to me today and I didn't want to end it.

He called at 9.35pm today. That was early. He would usually call at 9.40pm and had to finish the conversation by 9.45pm. Today, we could chat for 15 minutes. Maybe, I was greedy. When I was given more time, I wanted even more. I ended the call with a tear. I missed him a lot. Too much.

Don't talk about this.

Last night, Kleo mentioned a birthday surprise for me. I wonder what is it. She said, it will either make me cry or I will just don't care about it. Hmm, sounds so mysterious. She even said that I can choose when I want to recieve it. Wierd, right? I wonder what will that be. Thinking.

Wonder if I'll get a good night rest today. I haven been sleeping well for the past few days. *siGh* Guess I'll be going out for lunch tomorrow. Anyone wants to accompany me? Hehe... =)

I just feel like crying now. For I dunno what reason. Might be, I miss him too much...

Darling, I miss you so much. Just miss you very very much. Sometimes, I wish so much that when I miss you, you'll be standing right infront of me. I need a hug from you now. A long and tight one. Hmm, I didn't recieve your call yesterday and I hope to recieve one today. Please, make it happen. Now, I can only find comfort in listening to your voice. I feel so contented just to be able to listen to your voice.

Everytime I go and feed the hamsters, I think about you. Just 3 more days to go and we can chat on the phone for as long as we want. Just 4 more days to go and I will be able to see you again before you book in again. I will then have to miss you all over again.

Dear, I can't seem to get to sleep yesterday. I was thinking about you. I used to call you when I can't close my eyes but now, I can't do that anymore. Can time just pass faster? I feel so lonely everytime I'm alone. Simply because I miss you.

Had so much fun yesterday. Went all the way to Pasir Ris to have bbq with my classmates. We alighted at the wrong stop and had to walk a long way to Pit 22 and Zeyan was laughing at us! Evil her.. haha..

They made so many hotdogs and chicken wings. Think back, the whole night I have only been eating hotdogs? Haha.. And I took quite a lot of tidbits home, which were brought by von von. Her parents are so nice. They fetched us back to Tampines mrt station. And her mum is so pretty, just like her. Hmm, this is in the genes... heez..

We took quite a lot of pictures and they turned out quite nicely. And when I saw Siyu yesterday, she became thinner again. Omg, she's already so thin and I'm so jealous. Haha.

Last night when darling called me, I couldn't recognise his voice at all. Oh man! He lost his voice due to the shoutings. I thought it was some prank calls made by some irritating people as it happened before. Told him to drink lots of water and take care of himself. Hmm, I want a healthy darling on the 24th September.. Hehe..

6 more days to go...

Hehe. I've completed my attachment. Whew! Today when I finish work, I no longer feel stress and much more relax. But the sad thing is, the next 1 month, I might be rotting at home by myself. Because all of them are going for their attachment. Well, wish you all good luck!

Darling just told me today that he will be booking out on the 30 September and on the 1st October. I'm so happy that he can celebrate my birthday with me again this year. Hmm, I'll only open that big bear on my birthday. But before that, let me think where I should put it so that it won't get dirty.

My hamster had 5 babies. But 1 died. I don't know for what reason. I went on Wednesday only to find one missing. But I just went home because I just couldn't find the last one. On Thursday, his brother said that the last baby hamster that I couldn't find was dead at one corner under lots of wood shavings. Gosh. I wonder what did it die of.

Dear called me for the last few days. Hmm, but he told me he was admitted to the hospital and was put on drip for I don't know what reason. He don't want to tell me. I'm waiting for him to book out. On the 24th, right dear? Just one more week to go. In the beginning of this week, I missed him so much that I cried. Well, and Kleo knew it without me telling her. So nice to have someone who understands you so well being with you. =)

**Darling, I miss you so so so much. Can I turn the clock to make time pass faster? I'll turn the clock and make it stop at 9.30 everyday. So that I can fast forward time for you to call me at that time. After that, I'll turn it until 24 September. And I wanna let time stop just there. But can I? *siGh* **

Darling, I miss you. I miss you so much. I hope you can call me every single day. Even if its only a 5 mins chat.

I was so short tempered today. I couldn't sleep last night and I had to wake up early fot the morning shift. Kinda find all the patients who needs more attention irritating. Its a big big mistake! Since I was so tired, I went home and only got my nap at 5. My mum called me at 5.30 asking me to help her prepare dinner. If I'm short tempered again tomorrow, its all HER fault.

Yay! It's my last week of attachment! I'm looking forward to the start of my holidays. Hmm, it lasts for a month. Find it long yet short holiday. *siGh*

Today, darling came to fetch me after work - with a special present. It was a big, and I mean big pooh bear. It was for my birthday present. He was afraid that he could not come out from NS on the 1st October.

Today, work's fine. But, the ITE attachment students are starting theirs tomorrow. Die. Cannot slack already. Or else, everything will be done by them and nothing left for us. *siGh* Kleo, looks like you have to snatch not only with the PRCs but also the ITE students. I heard that they'll be there for 6 months. Because they learn the skills for 6 months and attachment for 6 months.

Time is passing by so fast. So fast that I cannot seem to do the things I wanna do. *siGh* Darling's going NS on 9th September and its already the 5th. 4 more days. I can't see him off. I can't accompany him on the 8th September. I can't seem to stop thinking about this date. If my attachment wasn't so early. Then, I could have accompanied him for the 9 days before he's going in. *siGh* Maybe the one week will pass quickly - if he manage to pass his physical fitness test. If not, it's gonna be 3 weeks I think. Double *siGh*.

**Darling, I'm missing you even now...**

Hmm, things don't seem to go well for me last few days. Darling and I have been quarrelling. *siGh* Things were going fine yesterday and today though. I just hope no more quarrels from now on.

One week of attachment have passed. It's not as tough as I thought it would be. Time passes quickly and you get to meet new people. When you see people getting discharged and getting better, you'll feel happier. It's priceless. Just yesterday, one auntie was discharged and she was thanking me for the care. This is something other jobs can't give? Hehe..

Kleo, if you happen to read this - its for you! I know things haven been going well for you. But hey, I'm always here for you yea? Don't be sad le. Anything can always find me and chat. My phone is on 24/7. =)

Low JiaQian
01 October 1988
Libra
Staff Nurse

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