These few days I haven't been sleeping early. The night before was chatting with ChinnYi on the phone and she complained that my entries about her were all not long enough. So now I decided to type one whole entry about her. Lols. We started talking on the phone at about 11 and ended the call at about 3.

Met up with Hanwei yesterday because he wanted to choose a present for Ai-Ching. After that, me and Kleo went over to ChinnYi's house. Played Hotels and Monopoly. And I went bankrupt the first time I was playing this kinda games. Lols. This girl said she dun wan me to go her house anymore. Lols. But I know she bu she de.

Saw Mrs Hong and Ms Doris Ho yesterday when I went to school to look for my mother and brother. Mrs Hong still got her gan cheong character. She still call Kleo by Kleo-pat-tra. Lols.

Last night chatted with Hanwei on the phone and he's gonna treat me to a Long John meal. Hehe.

We were waiting for SiYu - she was late!


On the bus to Sentosa!


Bikini babes - Lols. Kleo and me.


SiYu and me.

**More photos at the photo albums! Hehe.

Went to Bugis to buy Evon's present yesterday with Shawn, SiYu, ZeYan and Kleo. After that, Siyu,Kleo and me went to give out flyers. Had pastamania for dinner then me and Kleo went to take neoprints. Hmm, found a new machine that we quite liked. And I spent about $70 yesterday. *Gosh* I have to start saving up or I guess the rest of the holidays I can stay at home and eat cup noodles. Lols.

Today, went to Sentosa's Palawan Beach with Kleo, SiYu and Patterson. The rest couldn't make it at the last minute. But well, we still had lots of fun. Upload the photos after I've gotten them. Hehe. Didn't manage to suntan myself. I didn't get any darker!

Been about a month since I last saw my babies. I wonder how they're doing now. But I guess I just no longer have the courage to go and visit them any longer. I'm so afraid that I will wanna bring them all home with me. I miss them so so much.

This week have been pretty fine for me. I try not to reply any of his sms-es anymore, if they aren't important. Like today, he's been asking me weird questions like, "Hamster got miss pooh bear ma?". What do you expect me to reply? He called me about this sms and I told him straight, to stop sms-ing me these kinda questions. I dun wanna hate him.

ChinnYi finally realised that she's bullying me very often. Lols. Well, but I guess I can smile about this fact. Haha.

Yes, I may find him irritating. But why isit that when I did not recieve a single message from him at all today I feel so disturbed? Wierd me. *siGh*

Went to Kbox with my two other happy friends and ate Pizza Hut with ChinnYi after that. She finally got to eat her Pizza Hut that she was craving for 2 days ago? Lols. Talked about lots of things, including why guys like to watch porn and china women? Lols. What wierd topics we have nowadays. Haha.

Okay, I finally got my list for the guy I'm looking for. Lols.
He must be:
- Good-looking[Like Mike He. Hehe.]
- Have a lil bit of money[Lols. So I can spend=x]
- Able to sing, chinese pop songs![Because me and my happy two frens like singing!]
- Chinese must be A1[My chinese getting poorer and poorer. someone to teach me! Lols.]
- Oh ya! Most importantly, must love me lots!
Can't think/ remember any other expectations I listed at Kbox just now. I'll add to the list if I still think of any. Lols.

Just when I finished typing this entry, "he" called. Ask me sleep early.

I'm supposed to be out today - buying Evon's birthday present. But I decided to ask them change the outing because I was too tired. Was watching my VCDs these 2 days. Finished that show. So sweet. But I doubt that will ever happen in reality. Gonna watch them all over again. Hehe.

Francis[Teo]'s getting more and more irritating. He's been asking the same question over and over again. I'm going mad.

Went out to Orchard with SiYu and Kleo today. Hmm, bought a tee from Baleno. I had so much fun.

Saw WeePeng at Cineleisure in Missha today. She changed a lot. Been a long time since I last saw her. Became prettier and taller. Lols. SiYu just look so much like her. Everyone changed. I was looking through the yearbooks and we all looked so different now. Even SiWei and Kenny.

Met up with Patterson and Francis today for dinner at Heeren's. But I know, I gave Francis attitude. The reason - I wanted him to give up. I'm just not worth it. He wanted to send me home. But I rejected the offer. My heart could have soften if he had asked that one more time. Sometimes, I want so much that he gives me up and look for another girl. But, I also wish that he will care for me more. Like today, he wanted to let me lie on his shoulder today. But I dun want him to get the wrong idea.

**I'm sorry darling. I still love you..**

I'm feeling so irritated and frustrated right now. At what? I dunno. I just feel like shouting out loud now. I dunno what came over me. Guess its the time of the month.

**If one day I disappear from this world, will anybody care?**

Attachment's over! I have one month of holidays to spend. Hehe.

Haven really made plans but I'll be going out with Kleo on Monday to watch "Shaggy Dog". Dunno when am I going to get my pay for my attachment this time round. One of the ANs in the ward is giving us a treat. Hehe.

I know I once promised you that I'll never leave you. But I've experienced too much things in the relationship that I've chosen to give it up. I'm disappointed in you. The promises. You know I hate people who breaks promises - yet you did. The lies. You know I hate it when people lie to me - yet you did. You will never make an effort to remember things that I've said - like when my attachments end and how long my holidays will last. Till now, you never make an effort to remember. For how many times have I told you that my holidays will last for a month and it will start immediately after my holidays. Even until now, I have to repeat myself after 3 days. My patience is running out.

You once told me that we were drifting apart. You can feel it too so why are you not willing to let go now?

I got my results at 3.30am in the morning. *Gosh* The school sms-ed me my results. But well, I passed everything and I even got an 'A' for my Clinical. Though the rest not very well done.

3 more days and attachment's gonna end. Yay!

I forgot what I wanted to blog about. Lols

Tomorrow is the day. I have to give him the answer that I owe him tomorrow. SiYu told me to follow my heart. But I haven't made up my mind.

1 more week and my attachment will end! Yay! I'm getting my results on Wednesday. Wish me all the best. Hehe.

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I know everyone out there is gonna blame me for what happened. I know I hurt him too much, too much. Till now, I really still love him. But I guess I just need time to think everything through. I know its bad of me to path up with him, only to break up with him again a few days later. I know if after I think through and felt that I still need him the most, he might not trust me anymore. The feelings I have for him have never faded once.

I was touched when he bought me my favourite cake and chocolate bars on 28/02/06. I was touched when he told me he's willing to change every single thing for me on 28/02/06. I was touched when he finally said he will quit smoking because of me. I was touched when I saw him doing everything he could to save the relationship. That's why I agreed to patch. A broken relationship is like a broken mirror. No matter how much you try to patch things up, it will never be the same again. I guess its because of this, he became possessive. I guess he was insecure after what I did to him on 25/02/06.

I'm sorry, darling. I just hope that you won't hate me when you tink back of the relationship. Maybe, there'll be a day when we'll get back together again. give me athe time to really think through everything k? I miss you. I really do.

Long time since I last updated huh? Attachment started this week. So tired. But somehow, I like this feeling these few days. I dunno why. Wierd.

Went out with ChinnYi today after my work. She was looking for a book to design her blog. There's this thing that she did and I told her I wanted to blog it but I forgot all about it. *Gosh* I'm getting more and more like Dory these few days. She's so happy to see me. I made her laugh till peng loh. I also dunno what exactly made her laugh till like that in the library. Lols.

Looking for a new blog skin for so so many days and I still cant find one that I like. Or rather I found one that I liked, but I cant get the background. The person's bandwidth exceeded? *siGh*
I just feel that I shouldn't have patched things up with him afterall. Suddenly, he's so possessive. I feel so strangled. He wants to know when I get home, who I go out with, why didn't I call/reply his calls/sms-es. I feel so irritated everytime he asks all these questions.

Low JiaQian
01 October 1988
Libra
Staff Nurse

Graduation! - 22 MAy 2008
Sentosa Trip! - 26 July 2008
Trip to Night Safari! - 11 October 2008

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