.Thursday, November 23, 2006 Y
He used to be able to put a smile across my face at this kinda times. But now, he seems to be adding on to the sorrows.
On the journey home from school today, I thought about us, the good memories and the fights. I still cant understand why did this happen so suddenly. Its only about a month plus when he planned my birthday surprise for me. It was only 4 days after we had celebrated our 3-monthsary. Perhaps, I'm just not smart enough to see the relationship going wrong.
Throughout this 3months, it was only me always showing my attitude, throwing tantrums and it was always him being nice and giving in. He tried to give me all that I wanted, yet I still felt insecure because of someone that I know will never win his heart again. Perhaps, its all these that's led him to the decision?
Why the sudden no time? We used to make time even it was just for a short 1-hour lunch break. That's time spent right?
Where is the us that enjoyed each other's company during the dinners before we were together? Where is the us that enjoyed each other's company during the fireworks display & zoo trip? Where is the us at Pulau Ubin's chalet during my 18th birthday?
Then, I was thinking - is it my fault that the relationship turned out this way? I want so much to ask him out for a talk. A nice & calm talk to find out what happened. But I don't have the courage to hear the truths. I really don't.
waiting for you right here
11:11:00 PM
