.Friday, November 17, 2006 Y
It's hurting so much inside. I know very well that my lessons start at 8am tomorrow morning. But I cannot get to sleep. I had originally decided to sleep at 10pm. If I had done so, I wouldn't have talked to him on the phone.
Why doesn't he realise how painful isit? Everyone else around me who knows know how much I'm hurting inside, but he seems oblivious to everything. Even though he knows its all because of him, he doesn't seem to bother.
When it comes to relationship, I'm a stubborn girl. I know very well its time to give up. I will. But give me some time alright? I won't hate you or blame you or tell everyone around me that you're a bad boyfriend. I won't because I know you're not. You know how it feels when you lose someone just a few days after the person said you won't lose him?
Since Wednesday, I really have never hoped for you coming back anymore because I want things to remain as it is. But why must you insist in it? All I hoped for was us to remain as friends. I don't want to lose a friend because of this. You're no longer the Johnny I know - the one who was once confident in himself that nothing can bring him down, the one that used to tell me how great he was. All I hear now is, tired, depressed and stressed. You can blame no one. Work should never be brought home in the first place. Stress should be left at where it is. Not bringing them home.
I choose to trust you one last time.
waiting for you right here
1:51:00 AM
