.Monday, November 20, 2006 Y
The reason I cried today in school, was not all because of the failure of my test. I was left alone for a while when Evon and the others walked away, I started to miss him. At the point when Kleo was there, I really felt so much to hug her and tell her how much I missed him. But, I had to be strong, correct?
I asked him yesterday for a patch. It was so unlike me. But I did. I didn't get a positive answer. But I promised myself and I told him that would be the first and last time I'll be asking him. We will be friends. If right from the start, I chose to be selfish and allow the relationship to go on, we would have a harder time now. At least, we are friends now.
I really miss you. But you're no longer mine. You once told me, I won't lose you to anything - not even time, work or to any other persons. But it the end, I did. I lost you to work and to myself. The greatest mistake I ever made in this relationship is not being able to trust myself that you won't be gone. I'm sorry.
waiting for you right here
8:43:00 PM
