This going to be quite a long post..

Started my attachments on Monday. I'm getting bored but having fun.

I was surprised today that this little boy in the ward finally talked to me. I was bored in my cubicle and decided to play with this 3 year old boy. He just won't talk to me. But all of a sudden, when one of the parents was asking me about attachments, he called out quite loudly, "Jie-jie!". I walked over and he talked and smiled and even sing songs to let me hear. Lols. Cute little boy isn't he? But this poor boy has been vomitting since yesterday and won't eat his meals at all. Should I say he got a phobia for food or phobia for vomitting? All he took was his medicine and just water.

There is this other 9-month-old baby girl who is so friendly towards everybody. Everyone who walks past and smile to her will definitely get a smile back. She's not afraid of strangers as long as her mummy is around. This little girl also loves hugs and attention. She likes to be carried and you can't talk to someone else without involving her. Haha. Babies.

Went to watch The Protege with ChinnYi yesterday after work. Overall, a nice show. It made me stay awake throughout the movie and to want to see the ending. I also found out something from her on the same day. Still feeling guilty..

Off to bed already. Got to wake up at 5am, erm, later?

This is Rosanne. She's like a koala bear. Hehe.
I cant help laughing everytime I see this photo. Haha.

My sister is so addicted to mahjong now. So, I have been playing it for the past 3 nights. Winning as well. Hehe. Was playing it just now when they decided to shower first. I hope I continue on my winning streak later. Hehe.

I dunno how am I going to make it on the first day of attachments. My biological clock is so messed up now. Plus the on-going mahjong addiction my family has, I think my sleeping time is getting lesser and lesser.

Meeting Siyu and the rest, erm, later? Wonder what we all are going to do at Mr Edmund's house. Hmm..

I'm feeling really weak and empty inside. It's a me that I myself have never met before.

Going back to the mahjong table already. Laters~

我以为

你曾说不想有天让我知道
你对他有那么好
你说会懂我的失落
不是靠宽容就能够解脱

我以为我出现的时候刚好
你和他正说要分开
我以为你已对他不再期待
不纵容他再给你伤害

我以为我的温柔能给你真的愉悦
我以为我能全力填满你感情缺口
专心陪在你左右
弥补他一切的错
也许我太过天真
以为奇迹会发生

我以为终究你会慢慢明白
他的心不在你身上
我的关心
你依然无动于衷
我的以为只是我以为

我以为我的温柔能给你真的愉悦
我以为我能全力填满你感情缺口
专心陪在你左右
弥补他一切的错
也许我太过天真
以为奇迹会发生

他让你红了眼眶
你却还笑着原谅
原来你早就想好你要留在谁身旁
我以为我够坚强
却一天天地失望
少给我一点希望
希望就不是奢望
却输得那呢绝望
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I know that no matter what I do, I can never take her place in your heart..

My exams ended yesterday. But I think I kinda screwed up the whole paper. I dunno how to do the last few question of the MCQs, Section B was alright - I hope I answered them correctly and Section C is a complete disaster - I only know how to do 2 out of 3 parts and when I asked Siyu then I found out that my last part was kinda done wrongly. I hope I won't fail this paper. I hope my ICA could pull the marks up. *siGh*

Spent my last 3 days gambling away. =x Haven touched anything on the reproductive & endocrine systems, immunity system, blood and everything else that has got to do with the exams. All my relatives' houses, including mine, become a gambling den for all of us. I won some, lost some but in all still lost. Sadded.

Woke up early in the morning to prepare food for my relatives as our house was the first they visited for the day. I am so so tired now. Slept only at 430am yesterday because was chatting with my sister about my family. Now its already 130am and I'm still blogging away. Gotta wake up at 0700am later to go Siyu's house. My biological clock is all messed up again.

Baby, its getting hard to hide the feelings I have for you inside. And do u know baby, that I still miss you? I really do. - It's for no one in particular. Dunno why but just thought of this 2, can i call it, "phrases"? Lols.

It's new year eve already! Cleared the books on my table from all the studying, packed my wardrobe so that it will look decent, ironed all my new year clothes and tidied up the last bit of my room that doesn't look neat.

Went back to BLSS yesterday morning. Was surprised how these teachers can remember our faces and not our names. Lols. The performance was alright. I like the part when the SAF people performed. They have great voices. I like their singing.

Finally went to return the jacket yesterday. I don't owe anyone anything for the new year now.

My valentine's date last night was someone I'm not romatically involved with. He's more like a buddy that contacts me only when he wants to jio a girl. Lols. He was pestering me the whole afternoon to go with him for dinner just because he got no dinner at home and no valentine's date.

Anyway, paper today is bad. What more can I say about it? I studied yet I don't have confidence in the paper. Somehow, I just cant remember everything I studied. I just hope for a pass for this paper. Lucky the presentation was done quite alright.

Gonna write the notes for my Biology paper before new year so I don't have to worry about it at the mahjong table. Lols!

我等你

不做考虑也没半点犹豫
我就说了这一句 我等你
你眼中闪过了一些讶异
更多的是怀疑 所以你可以离去
不相信你还会回心转意
是我任性才决定 要等你
我眼中的泪没掉过一滴
只是随你背影 慢慢倒流进心里（心底）

我等你 半年为期
逾期就狠狠把你忘记
不只伤心的 还包括一切甜蜜
（你应该已经和她公开在一起）
要等你 要证明自己
我可以纵容你在心底
也可以当你只是路过的人而已
爱到痛之极 才需要一段等你的限期 来遗忘自己

This song sounds so meaningful for me now.

It's Valentine's Day and I'm thinking about lots of stuffs. Things that I shouldn't be thinking. These few days, all the sweet sweet things that happened came floating in my mind. I dunno why. This is not the 'him' you all think he is. =)

Studied quite a bit and they cant seem to get inside my head. Medications, pathophysiology, nursing management, signs & symptoms and investigations. Oh my, I'm going crazy.

One paper down today. For the very first time in poly life, or maybe second, I'm confident of passing the paper or even getting at least a B. Lols.

2 more to go. Going to work hard for this semester. Don't wanna let one module to spoil my whole result slip. Hehe.

Anyway, SiYu was telling me that the photos cant be seen in the last post. I've updated them. Should be see-able now. Hehe. =)

Yesterday was the last day of Year 2 Semester 2. Cleared my last project & ICA as well. Exams & attachments coming and I'll be going on to year 3. I still remember the last semestral exam, it seems like yesterday. 6 months has passed since then.. No more breakfast early in the morning before my paper, no more of nagging at me to study and no more of asking me to stop the computer games and start studying. I'm not missing him, I'm just missing the moments. Lols.

Have to go back study already.. Pictures coming up..


Make-up sessions!


Rushing through our lunch to prepare for presentations..


Me & Kleo..


The 5 girls..


My NICE friend who is always "picking on" me..


Claire! She lent me the shirt.


Me & SiYu.. She's still so skinny after 2 years!


My ever-so-fun subgroup. We rush through projects and get stressed up together. Hehe. Especially Zeyan, we always have different opinions but things always work out in the end. I wonder how my poly life will be without them! Love them to bits & pieces.

**More photos to come.. After I receieve them from Zeyan..

Have been going to the hospital for the past 2 days to accompany my mum. Everything's okie already. Went to donate blood with my sister today. The first needle was damn painful. The nurse there was also nice to us. We even got chicken essence after the donation. Hehe. It was yummy!

Starting to do the next project now which is due on Friday. After that must start to prepare for the exams. Stress, stress & more stress. CNY is round the corner as well. Yay! Next week going to highlight and trim my hair a little. Its getting long already and I dun want any lecturers to complain about my hair though its short now.

Anyway, I'm really glad I made the right choice just now. And I'm indeed a happier person. Even better than the past few days. Thanks. Thanks for making me understand everything. =)

Finally got my coloured lens. CNY shopping list is going to be completed soon. Haha. One pair of jeans and skirt and I'm ready for the new year! Checked my eyesight just now after 2 long years. My astigmatism is INCREASING. Oh no!

Know how "dory" I got today at Clarke Quay? I actually kinda lost my way and forgot how to walk from the shopping mall to the mrt station. The entrance to the train station was blocked by the escalator and I was like walking around for close to 20 mins looking for the food court and the entrance to the station. And I didn't find it as well. Called Mr Gnin for help. I'm this blur one what. Haha. Another thing that Mr Gnin didn't know was that, I took the escalator near to Eyeplay up from first floor and I walked one BIG round to go back to look for him to give me directions. Faint!

Dunno how much fats I actually burned today just by walking around that shopping mall. Lols.

One more ICA to go and its exams! I can't wait for exams and attachments to be over. Next week is going to be another stressful week. One more project to rush. Just by thinking about it gives me an headache. Someone, kill me please..

I'm tired. Really tired. Tired of having to stress over so many things.

Exams. Projects. And over so many other things.

I really thought I have done it since last December. Looks like I haven't. I thought I am strong. But I'm not. I wanna let out my emotions but I can't.

Low JiaQian
01 October 1988
Libra
Staff Nurse

Graduation! - 22 MAy 2008
Sentosa Trip! - 26 July 2008
Trip to Night Safari! - 11 October 2008

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