I wish I could run away from all these.

I beginning to hate myself for having this soft spot for you to make use of.

ChinnYi's right. If you love someone, you don't have to be with him/her. Especially when you know you won't be happy together.

Yes, I still have this tiny bit of feelings for him. Okay, not tiny bit. But, I learnt to let go. Why should I let him hurt me time and again? I'm still picking myself up and nursing the broken heart. And this is the last time I'm going to do this. The last time I'm going to let him hurt me.
Joo's right. It will be harder to pick myself up after each fall.

Happy2ndfren: don't get too upset alright? you know i'm always here. =)

Yea, the nights are long but dawn will still break. Although I have to start all over now and its going to be harder, I know I'll be able to do it.

School work is piling up and I've been trying hard to clear them but they just seem to multiply even faster.

记得爱 所有幸福的片段 所以才一直忘记要离开

Do you know how it feel when you wake up in the morning feeling empty? Do you know how it feels when the night feels so long and it doesn't seem to end? Do you know how it feels to try and make everyday packed with activities so that no time will be left for yourself?

I'm a good girl today. I actually finished two tutorial homework and one skill workbook practice. Going to be real busy for the next few weeks because my students are having exams soon, my camp is coming up soon and all my other ICAs, theory test and skill tests coming up one after another.

And its 1am now. Someone, knock me out.

Its time to stop going further. Time to stop going deeper and deeper in.

I was already starting to believe. But today, I guess I have to think it through again.

First day of school. The lecturers are all stressing on the tests, skill tests and presentations that are coming up. Its now week one and in 3 weeks' time, I'm having my theory & skills tests. First day isn't that bad afterall. But the matured students in the class are still so... overbearing? Hmm..

I dunno if I should be happy today. I dunno if I can still believe. But I'll give that question a serious thought. But I'm afraid.

I had so much fun today! It's like so so so long since I really laughed to my heart's content.

I think the funniest one is when Shi Qi made fun of Jun Hong. Haha.

School's reopening soon.

And I need to wake up early tomorrow to go for the tuition I missed today..

I'm waiting for payday. =p

我怀念的

我问为什么 那女孩传简讯给我
而你为什么 不解释低着头沉默
我该相信你很爱我 不愿意敷衍我
还是明白你已不想挽回什么

想问为什么 我不再是你的快乐
可是为什么 却苦笑说我都懂了
自尊常常将人拖着 把爱都走曲折
假装了解是怕 真相太赤裸裸
狼狈比失去难受

我怀念的是无话不说
我怀念的是一起作梦
我怀念的是争吵以后
还是想要爱你的冲动

我记得那年生日
也记得那一首歌
记得那片星空
最紧的右手最暖的胸口
谁记得谁忘了

想问为什么
我不再是你的快乐
可是为什么
却苦笑说我都懂了
自尊常常将人拖着
把爱都走曲折
假装了解是怕
真相太赤裸裸
狼狈比失去难受

我怀念的是无话不说
我怀念的是一起作梦
我怀念的是争吵以后
还是想要爱你的冲动

我记得那年生日
也记得那一首歌
记得那片星空
最紧的右手最暖的胸口
谁忘了

我怀念的是无言感动
我怀念的是绝对炽热
我怀念的是你很激动
求我原谅抱得我都痛

我记得你在背后
也记得我颤抖着
记得感觉汹涌
最美的烟火最长的相拥

谁爱得太自由
谁过头太远了
谁要走我的心
谁忘了那就是承诺
谁自顾自地走
谁忘了看着我
谁让爱变沉重
谁忘了要给你温柔

我怀念的
我还有想要爱你的冲动
我记得那年生日
也记得那一首歌
记得那片星空
最紧的右手最暖的胸口

我放手
我让座
假洒脱
谁懂我
多么不舍得

太爱了
所以我
没有哭
没有说
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This song brings back so so many memories..

I cant get to sleep again!! Argh! I only slept at 5am in the morning. And its happening again.

And I cant seem to sign in to msn to chat with anyone.

Bored.

I only slept for 4 hours yesterday and I should be asleep now. But, I cant. I'm tired but when I close my eyes, I cant get to sleep. Its been a long time since I felt like that..

I guess shopping really does make a girl happy. Happier when she's not in her best of mood. Happiest when it is done with the bestest friend! Haha.

I know it myself that its all a lie. I know it perfectly well.
But I always find myself saying, "forget it. it won't happen again."

I know it myself that this will happen again.
But I again always find myself saying, "it'll all be fine again. things will change for the better."

I dunno how long more will this vicious cycle lasts. I hope it ends after this time.
__________________

Shopping on Monday!

I'm disappointed in myself. Very disappointed. I thought I could handle it well. I THOUGHT!

Had lots of fun today! We went out to celebrate Evon's belated birthday. Someone has turned 20!! Originally planned to go ice-skating then to Marche dinner. But Evon couldn't go ice-skating. Plan B: Movie, shopping and dinner all at Vivocity! It's been a long time since I last saw the 3 of them. Hmm, guess its been 1 month?

I was late as we originally planned to meet at Jurong East so I woke up really late. Rushed down to Vivocity and ate Carls' Junior. Had a full lunch then went to look at the timeslots available for the different movies. Decided to watch "The Number 23" and since it was beginning soon, we took the earliest timeslot available. Had a really unexpected ending. Overall was a nice movie.



Went shopping after that. And since we didn't buy any birthday present for Evon, we bought her a denim dress that she liked. Walked around the shops and went to the arcade for 2 games and off we went to Marche!




I think we all looked happier here. Even though the other photo looks, erm, more perfect.

We had a yummylicious time there. =)

Uploaded the photos into the photo album!

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