I went on a shopping spree on Friday after getting my pay. And that retail therapy session didn't make me feel better. For some reason, I was alot more upset after the whole thing. It felt worse when Clara left me at Starbucks for that short 5 mins while she went to withdraw money from a nearby ATM machine. I dunno why.

I always thought it would make me feel better. I never thought this thing could hurt me so bad. So bad that.. I don't wanna talk about it. Talking about it might make me feel better, I know. But there are times when I don't wanna say. This time, talking about me makes me feel.. worse. I dunno why. I don't even know where to start.

I guess I'll be alright after awhile. Really.

I was supposed to blog about this guy I saw at Queensway Mac with Eli some time last week. We went to study for our own tests and we saw this guy who had similiarites to Shi Long.

I was supposed to be concentrating when this group of guys walked over the table beside us caught my attention. The first time I saw him, he had the Shi Long face. Then as we were listening to their not-so-soft conversations, we realised how the sound alike when talking. Got the same... guai lan tone. LOL.

I guess it was quite obvious because we were trying really hard not to laugh out loud but we kept looking over to their table. Hahas.

So much for all the fun. Work have been fine so far. Reaching home later and later. And I realised work seem to end earlier when there is something planned for after-work. Weird. But I dunno why. On those days. work always end by 3pm.

I'm done emo-ing. So, I'm a happy girl - again! Hehe.

Finally had the time to go for movies this few days. Watched "The Incredible Hulk" and "Kungfu Panda". Both are nice. Even though I'm not the kind who's into action-packed movies, I thought that The Hulk is nice.

"Kungfu Panda" is the typical kinda animation. Not as lame as I thought it would be. (:

Still thinking if I should go for the Camp Muse Sentosa outing this coming Saturday. People, wanna come?

Its been a week. I've spent my weekdays working working and working. But the past weekend had been fun filled.

Went out on Saturday afternoon with Clara to get Majorie's birthday pressie. We got her a bear wardrobe and a few pieces of clothing for her bear from Build-a-bear. Its really preeeeeettttyyyy! Haha. Went over to my grandma's place after that for dinner. I had to go because it's been a long time since I went for a family gathering. Rushed over to NYP after that for SU camp.

Saw many familiar faces and had my share of fun. Went out of school with Eli and Kelvin to watch soccer at some kopitiam then to McDonald's. Initially, Shikin and Yifeng planned to come with us. But they decided not to in the end.

We played wet games on Sunday morning. We helped to make the water bombs early in the morning, starting at 0830. At 10am, the water bombs arent even done. My fingers were all sore and even had blisters after tying all the bags up. I was already drenched before the water war started. All thanks to Shi Long and Eli Peh.

Showered, rested awhile and went home to put down the big heavy bag and headed to Majorie's birthday party together with Dixie, Faith, Clara, Idayu, Zhang Xuan & Venus. Had lots of fun there. Helped her assemble her pretty bear wardrobe. She then took out her Wii and made all of us play with her one sport each. Boxing is really tiring. Especially when I haven slept at night. We ended the day with lots of photos.

Will upload the photos ater I get them from Majorie's dad! (:
I want all my weekends to be this fun!! No more working on weekends.. can? ):

I finally cried today after I had a talk with her. I couldn't refute because it was a mistake I made. I dunno if I felt better but I still feel really upset.

And when she hugged me, stroked my hair and said, "Its okay, girl. You'll grow up after this incident. You'll grow to be a better nurse". At that point, I thought to myself, "perhaps she isn't all that bad". At that moment, she felt like a mother who still loves her child even after all the wrong the child had done.

I didn't tell my mum or my dad what happened. Its no longer like in the past, when I made a mistake in school I could go home and let my mum scold me and everything will be fine. I dunno how to tell them that I may not make it this time. Perhaps, its because a small part of me still hopes that I'll make still make it through.

So many things have happened. Until now, I cannot even give myself a good answer to why it had happened.

I really dunno why.

I might not make it this time round. I still hope I do.

Low JiaQian
01 October 1988
Libra
Staff Nurse

Graduation! - 22 MAy 2008
Sentosa Trip! - 26 July 2008
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